my friend, dear adelaide

sigh...

i started tired.
but you saw the potential in me.
looking back.
you made me so mad but you seemed to care,
always just seem to be there.

why do you have to make me feel so sad?
i'd be sad when i leave.
i'll miss you when i'm gone.

but i'll be back
i can make things happen if i wanted them to.
i can make things happen if i have reason to.
but is this what i will make me happy?
i love everything that is... for the now
holding on

the choices we make...
the facts we face
i wish i could change circumstances,
but dear God, please help me with my next very uncertain step.

i'm documenting this down on blog because i want to look back, i want to remember


♥always
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