urgh...

i just wanted to say....

i Hate Multiply lah!!
now that i've linked blogger to multiply, it announces every action i make!!
i hate it!
so for those that found their multiply site floooded with my posts from bloggger,
i'm soooo sorry!! i felt to paiseh when i realised!
... a thousand apologies!


anyways, i just wanted to say...

to my dear friends in adelaide,
i've been soooo busy here to even be excited about returning to aussie. but when i do stop to think... i realise, i really really really MISS YOU GUYS!!!

to my new found friends from FGA singapore,
i know i don't talk heaps but you guys have changed my disposition toward singapore. i once thought, if i could get this 1 yr in singapore over and done with quick and go back to aussie or when the time came for me to leave for good, it would be easy peasy. i would have nothing holding me back. but now, i just wanted to say, thanks for holding me back!(in a good way!)


all in all, i don't think i've ever felt so divided. this time of transition again for me. it used to be easier, but knowing i have a span of a yr divided between singapore and aussie makes it that tad bit harder parting with either...

Love you all heaps

love,
. f i O n a

overwhelmed

25 days left...

excited
happy?
sad?
eagerness, anticipation!!!
time, time...NO TIME!!

afraid :
scared\
disquieted, apprehensive, timid, timorous. Afraid, alarmed, frightened, terrified all indicate a state of fear. Afraid implies inner apprehensive disquiet: afraid of the dark.

—Antonyms 1. bold, confident, fearless.

so little, so much!
too short, TOO MUCH
time, time...NO TIME!!

i laugh
i cry
i smile
i cry again

despair, perplexed,
hopeful,elated, gleeful, blithe

letting go looking forward
letting go looking backward
forward backward


to hold on or to let go?
"move on!!"
learning, still learning
will i ever get used to this?


they say, "change is the only constant..."
blah blah blah...

tell me... are you just for NOW? for a season? or forever?
time, time...I NEED TIME!!

this is rubbish

i don't know
i really don't
will i ever


stop.