sometimes things just happen

on top of feeling stressed about how my current family situation this is what i had to deal with...

last night i found out one of my grand uncles passed away and was annoyed that my parents didnt tell me about it and went to the wake without me. then my brother came home and i noticed a huge bright red wound on near his elbow. everytime my brother falls it breaks my heart to watch him struggle to get up and always refuses to let us help him. most times i wish i could just piggy-back him rather than see him struggle. this time he said he fell on the road. i felt guilty for not being there to help him when i should have been. i dont know what road but i'm glad it wasnt a road with traffic and more importantly God has kept him safe.

this morning on my way to work whilst on the bus, i saw a dead cat on the road that got hit by traffic. i felt so sorry for the poor cat. then on my way back close to midnight i witnessed a motocycle accident. the sight of the guy lying on the ground with his shirt ripped at the shoulder scratched and bleeding, a huge pink flesh wound on his head the size of my fists and a small pool of blood on the road, traumatised me!

i wanted to run down from the upper deck of the bus and lay hands and pray for him man. it was all i felt could be of any help. but the guy was conscious and got up and walked out of the road. i wanted to cry then. i was already stressed to begin with. maybe i've had too much of death & blood for 2 days.

i cried walking home, cried out to God cuz sometimes in our own flesh we have no control of what happens around us. absolutely none. zilch. zero. and it's frustrating. it's so frustrating when everything around you seems to be taking place but you in your earthly being can physically do nothing but pray and keep focus on Him...